closure

what's meant to be, will be.

haha. everything feels more or less settled now (: i know where i want to go, what i want to do. the path is just stretching out ahead of me now. and it feels good, cos its a path of certain familiarities, but with the majority being the unknown.

i feel kinda bad for wasting so much money on us uni apps -.- when i did everything so half-heartedly. the only time i put in the effort was for cambridge and ucas. but i've kinda accepted not getting cambridge now. i have this feeling i wouldn't have been particularly happy in cambridge anyway, with the point in life that i am at now. and i would be living in a memory, trying to get back what i felt before. but i will go there one day. its just a matter of time. haha. it feels good to talk about all these so easily and lightly (:

when a door closes, a window opens

i hope everyone can see it that way too (:

dinner with mel tonight was lovely. haha, i missed my darling mel mei. i think she has lost quite a bit of her innocence over e past 2 yrs thanks to the conversations suefaye and i had. hahaha, but its like now we can talk about everything and anything. and i love it!

london, here i come!

: moon over bourbon street :: sting :